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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
what the term "christian" means to me.
God i need you in my life. all the time. to get through this life. through the ugliness of this world.
sometimes i look back and reflect on my life thus far, and i'm constantly amazed by how the Lord is working, the changes in me may not be like.. WHOA. but little by little, through all the down times, He's shaping me, transforming me. but that doesn't mean i'm like the perfect person now. in fact, i sometimes feel so helpless when my weaknesses stare at me in my face.
being a christian doesn't make me more perfect than those who aren't. being a christian means that i face the same difficulties as any other person would, i'd feel just as confused, helpless and frustrated. i'd be subjected to temptations, trials and tribulations. BUT being a christian means that i have someone to constantly rely on. someone that shares my burdens, my joys. someone that is my pillar of strength. my Saviour, my Lord, my best friend, my confidant, my Redeemer. being a christian means i am just as frail and weak as anyone else, but i have a comforter by my side. and after all that i've been through, i'm ever so thankful that i have God with me all the time.
to be in the world, yet not of the world. Lord, only you can keep me safe.
tagboard replies:
liru
aye my dearest spousey! ahaha we must go out soon alright or i'll be suffering from a never-heard-before disease: i-miss-liru disease. (: just me, you, rah and jingyi. woooo. and i love you too my dearest spousey-wousey. i love calling you that.
keni
haha no worries. and i love you very very much if you didn't already know that. (:
ling
thanks sweetie! haha see i wasn't wrong man. you're like the most caring person in our cell. -gives you a great big hug- thank you for everything.
tian
geee the whole world is questioning me about you and chris. haha. anyhows i miss you like crazy. please come back soon. and fix your comp thank you very much.
chris
ahhh the above sentence "geee the whole world is questioning me about you and chris. haha." applies to you too. anyhows i'm looking forward to this fri! (: and chris please PLEASE stop irritating me. ): although i know you get a kick out of it.
yun
oh ho. sentosa on sat with sherm. (:
georgia
i miss you too. and i tagged on YOUR blog. oooh you and your "gao fettish". (:
sometimes i look back and reflect on my life thus far, and i'm constantly amazed by how the Lord is working, the changes in me may not be like.. WHOA. but little by little, through all the down times, He's shaping me, transforming me. but that doesn't mean i'm like the perfect person now. in fact, i sometimes feel so helpless when my weaknesses stare at me in my face.
being a christian doesn't make me more perfect than those who aren't. being a christian means that i face the same difficulties as any other person would, i'd feel just as confused, helpless and frustrated. i'd be subjected to temptations, trials and tribulations. BUT being a christian means that i have someone to constantly rely on. someone that shares my burdens, my joys. someone that is my pillar of strength. my Saviour, my Lord, my best friend, my confidant, my Redeemer. being a christian means i am just as frail and weak as anyone else, but i have a comforter by my side. and after all that i've been through, i'm ever so thankful that i have God with me all the time.
to be in the world, yet not of the world. Lord, only you can keep me safe.
tagboard replies:
liru
aye my dearest spousey! ahaha we must go out soon alright or i'll be suffering from a never-heard-before disease: i-miss-liru disease. (: just me, you, rah and jingyi. woooo. and i love you too my dearest spousey-wousey. i love calling you that.
keni
haha no worries. and i love you very very much if you didn't already know that. (:
ling
thanks sweetie! haha see i wasn't wrong man. you're like the most caring person in our cell. -gives you a great big hug- thank you for everything.
tian
geee the whole world is questioning me about you and chris. haha. anyhows i miss you like crazy. please come back soon. and fix your comp thank you very much.
chris
ahhh the above sentence "geee the whole world is questioning me about you and chris. haha." applies to you too. anyhows i'm looking forward to this fri! (: and chris please PLEASE stop irritating me. ): although i know you get a kick out of it.
yun
oh ho. sentosa on sat with sherm. (:
georgia
i miss you too. and i tagged on YOUR blog. oooh you and your "gao fettish". (:
Sunday, January 29, 2006
can you feel Him?
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
new year, a time of tradition, a time of new beginnings, a time of celebration. and the best part is.. i'm starting the day off in God's house. (: it doesn't get better than this man.
let's put the unhappy past behind us yeah? somehow i find that when God is in my life, deeply embedded in all my thought processes, i find it so much easier to forgive, knowing that He forgave me first. and when you're in a foul mood, just think of it as your last day on earth. and you'll really learn to treasure those around you. (:
God answers prayers. all the time. it's just a matter of what kind of answers he gives, cos sometimes it can only be to our long term benefit that he wills things to happen otherwise from what we ask for.
God bless each and everyone of you this festive period, and may His grace keep you in all His aundance. (:
new year, a time of tradition, a time of new beginnings, a time of celebration. and the best part is.. i'm starting the day off in God's house. (: it doesn't get better than this man.
let's put the unhappy past behind us yeah? somehow i find that when God is in my life, deeply embedded in all my thought processes, i find it so much easier to forgive, knowing that He forgave me first. and when you're in a foul mood, just think of it as your last day on earth. and you'll really learn to treasure those around you. (:
God answers prayers. all the time. it's just a matter of what kind of answers he gives, cos sometimes it can only be to our long term benefit that he wills things to happen otherwise from what we ask for.
God bless each and everyone of you this festive period, and may His grace keep you in all His aundance. (:
Friday, January 27, 2006
thank you Lord for yet another week of grace.
things i've learnt over the past week at work:
-application criteria for teaching (things that they don't tell the public)
-routing files
-tolerating grumps (yes she's back to her old self again, sad to say.)
-some people just take time to warm up to you (jolly chelvi! (: )
-always ALWAYS have your security pass with you
-last minute things happen all the time in this department, so deal with it.
-preparing interviews
-interviewing people (the recruitment agency's reps)
-reading certificates in cheeena meeeena chinese
-i couldn't ask for a better boss. (:
really, i don't think i'd trade jobs, even if my pay's a sucky $6/hr before CPF deductions. why? cos it's really hard to find a job that provides you with such exposure. i really learnt alot. and it's hard to find a nice boss and colleagues (the temp staff and chelvi) that you really love to work with. jo yi's so sweet, it's really a blessing that i'm under her. lots of stress, cos she's also pretty new to the job, but her sweet personality just makes everything work out. (:
so here's a beeeeeeg THANK YOU to jesline for getting me this job. heehee. i couldn't be happier anywhere else.. i think. (: you, your bro and yvette really make working with grumps so much better, i can run to yvette's cubicle if i cannot tahan anymore, or that i know that you and your bro are tolerating her as well and that i'm not alone. (:
and an even bigger THANK YOU God, for always being there for me, that i can feel your presence wherever i go.
oh for those who think that wearing the cross on the necklace is cool and nice and makes you feel better cos you've got some "supernatural protection" with that little 't' on your neck, i say you're wrong. the cross that i wear is not a fashion accessory. it's a constant burden, one that i'd gladly bear. it's a visible sign to all that i'm God's one, and because it's for all to see, i have to live up to His mighty and glorious name, and be a good testimony. no, i will not disgrace the cross, for it means too much to me. (:
-application criteria for teaching (things that they don't tell the public)
-routing files
-tolerating grumps (yes she's back to her old self again, sad to say.)
-some people just take time to warm up to you (jolly chelvi! (: )
-always ALWAYS have your security pass with you
-last minute things happen all the time in this department, so deal with it.
-preparing interviews
-interviewing people (the recruitment agency's reps)
-reading certificates in cheeena meeeena chinese
-i couldn't ask for a better boss. (:
really, i don't think i'd trade jobs, even if my pay's a sucky $6/hr before CPF deductions. why? cos it's really hard to find a job that provides you with such exposure. i really learnt alot. and it's hard to find a nice boss and colleagues (the temp staff and chelvi) that you really love to work with. jo yi's so sweet, it's really a blessing that i'm under her. lots of stress, cos she's also pretty new to the job, but her sweet personality just makes everything work out. (:
so here's a beeeeeeg THANK YOU to jesline for getting me this job. heehee. i couldn't be happier anywhere else.. i think. (: you, your bro and yvette really make working with grumps so much better, i can run to yvette's cubicle if i cannot tahan anymore, or that i know that you and your bro are tolerating her as well and that i'm not alone. (:
and an even bigger THANK YOU God, for always being there for me, that i can feel your presence wherever i go.
oh for those who think that wearing the cross on the necklace is cool and nice and makes you feel better cos you've got some "supernatural protection" with that little 't' on your neck, i say you're wrong. the cross that i wear is not a fashion accessory. it's a constant burden, one that i'd gladly bear. it's a visible sign to all that i'm God's one, and because it's for all to see, i have to live up to His mighty and glorious name, and be a good testimony. no, i will not disgrace the cross, for it means too much to me. (:
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Jeanette, your love personality type is ISTJ
About 7% of the U.S. population shares the combination of traits that make up this love type.
Being an ISTJ means that you are one cool customer. Although few would describe you as being warm, cuddly, or sentimental, many people likely see you as an important source of support in their lives. That's because when things are chaotic or falling apart, you're the type of person who can be virtually unflappable. ISTJs like you are known for being talented problem solvers. When it comes to your relationships, you usually know how to speak up for yourself so that others know what you want. But that doesn't mean you're rigid or inflexible. In fact, you're quite willing to bend for the right person. They just need to make their case honestly.
Monday, January 23, 2006
omg.
Jeanette, your crush is the Class Clown
Seriously forks. Only a guy with a great sense of humor stands a chance of making it as your fun-loving sweetie. Going back-to-school doesn't have to be a bland and boring time. With a funny and cute guy to crush on, things will definitely put a smile on your face.
Even when attending mandatory student assemblies and classes that last for days, you're a girl with an active mind and funny bone. Thankfully, your new crush should liven up even the dullest of moments. Maybe he's cracking jokes in History class, writing witty pieces for the newspaper, or hamming it up in the lunchroom. Wherever you find him, you'll be in for an entertaining school year!
Jeanette, you're a Goofball!
Your type is the Goofball
Seriously forks. Only a guy with a great sense of humor stands a chance of making it as your fun-loving sweetie. Going back-to-school doesn't have to be a bland and boring time. With a funny and cute guy to crush on, things will definitely put a smile on your face.
Even when attending mandatory student assemblies and classes that last for days, you're a girl with an active mind and funny bone. Thankfully, your new crush should liven up even the dullest of moments. Maybe he's cracking jokes in History class, writing witty pieces for the newspaper, or hamming it up in the lunchroom. Wherever you find him, you'll be in for an entertaining school year!
Jeanette, you're a Goofball!
Your type is the Goofball
Laughter is the way to your heart. A guy with a great sense of humor is definitely the one for you! You want a Goofball, someone who can laugh at himself and make you laugh, too. There's no bigger turn-off than a guy whotakes himself too seriously. You know that if a guy is silly, he's generally self-confident and secure. Your man is a people magnet and everyone's favorite friend. There's never a dull moment with your jokester nearby. You crave excitement and laughter, and your goofball enhances those things in your life. You probably think life is too short to spend it without asmile. Your goofy guy will ensure that that doesn't happen - his lighthearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.
okay this is seriously freaking me out. =l
my love life?
Jeanette, the best Zodiac Match for your personality is Cancer
Cancer, the Crab (June 22 to July 22):
This emotional and imaginative partner is just your type. Initially, a Cancerian may catch your eye because of their romantic ways and dedication to you. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to your Cancer's practicality and ability to nurture you. People born under this sign tend to be true-blue, loyal partners who are willing to devote their hearts and souls to their close relationships. Because of the deep investment they'll put into others, Cancerians can be easily hurt and may seem overly sensitive at times. However, more often, Cancers are simply warm and compassionate mates. In the bedroom, you may find the Crab a bit hard to coax out of its shell — at least at first. Cancers can be somewhat timid lovers in comparison to other signs. Typically, a Cancer's nature is to value family above all else. As a result, if you can make a Cancer happy and earn that familial title, you can be sure that this partner will always be there for you.
haha. gee my results seem strangely accurate. (:
Cancer, the Crab (June 22 to July 22):
This emotional and imaginative partner is just your type. Initially, a Cancerian may catch your eye because of their romantic ways and dedication to you. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to your Cancer's practicality and ability to nurture you. People born under this sign tend to be true-blue, loyal partners who are willing to devote their hearts and souls to their close relationships. Because of the deep investment they'll put into others, Cancerians can be easily hurt and may seem overly sensitive at times. However, more often, Cancers are simply warm and compassionate mates. In the bedroom, you may find the Crab a bit hard to coax out of its shell — at least at first. Cancers can be somewhat timid lovers in comparison to other signs. Typically, a Cancer's nature is to value family above all else. As a result, if you can make a Cancer happy and earn that familial title, you can be sure that this partner will always be there for you.
haha. gee my results seem strangely accurate. (:
and another test..
Jeanette, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your love life.
On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your love life. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about your romantic life have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.
You may feel your love life is unfulfilling and needs a jumpstart. You might be going through a lot of changes in your love life that you find emotionally draining. You might simply spend a lot of time thinking about romantic relationships. Or maybe you're so frustrated with your situation that you avoid the topic all together.
Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.
oh really? -.^
On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your love life. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about your romantic life have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.
You may feel your love life is unfulfilling and needs a jumpstart. You might be going through a lot of changes in your love life that you find emotionally draining. You might simply spend a lot of time thinking about romantic relationships. Or maybe you're so frustrated with your situation that you avoid the topic all together.
Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.
oh really? -.^
a test daniel thong sent me..
You're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude, you have a bright, inviting demeanor. Energetic and fun-loving, you're a real friend-magnet. Your easy charm and unassuming manner make you the sort of person people want to meet and get to know better. Well-rounded and fun to be around, you enjoy helping others, so it's no surprise that orange also symbolizes attraction. Orange is an extraordinary color — for an extraordinary person.
interestingly, he had the same one too. yay. jiejie didi are both orange people. HAHAHA (:
Orange
You're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude, you have a bright, inviting demeanor. Energetic and fun-loving, you're a real friend-magnet. Your easy charm and unassuming manner make you the sort of person people want to meet and get to know better. Well-rounded and fun to be around, you enjoy helping others, so it's no surprise that orange also symbolizes attraction. Orange is an extraordinary color — for an extraordinary person.
interestingly, he had the same one too. yay. jiejie didi are both orange people. HAHAHA (:
Sunday, January 22, 2006
my new favourite boy silas
he's such a cutie pie. haha! xintian says now i go for younger hunks. oh man. 3 yr old hunks like silas?! hahah. but silas is so super cute. he's my favourite boy now. (: no mark, chris, marc, teng or who-have-you. silas is in the house. (:
he's such a cutie pie. haha! xintian says now i go for younger hunks. oh man. 3 yr old hunks like silas?! hahah. but silas is so super cute. he's my favourite boy now. (: no mark, chris, marc, teng or who-have-you. silas is in the house. (:
Thursday, January 19, 2006
everybody please head down to tecman at bras basah complex NOW. (:
especially if you're a tecman member.. cos members get 40% off all books! ad if you aren't.. BE A MEMBER. haha. membership is only $6 a yr, and only $3 if you're a student.
haha went to tecman with my dad today. bought 6 books and the bill was only $63.. and they were all books that normally cost 20 bucks each. so yeah. (: good deal man. (: some were 50 % off la. i liked the older books that were on sale. yeap.
GO GO GO. offer ends end of this month.
btw i'm not employed nor instigated by tecman to advertise. it's just that i thought more people should benefit from this sale. (:
especially if you're a tecman member.. cos members get 40% off all books! ad if you aren't.. BE A MEMBER. haha. membership is only $6 a yr, and only $3 if you're a student.
haha went to tecman with my dad today. bought 6 books and the bill was only $63.. and they were all books that normally cost 20 bucks each. so yeah. (: good deal man. (: some were 50 % off la. i liked the older books that were on sale. yeap.
GO GO GO. offer ends end of this month.
btw i'm not employed nor instigated by tecman to advertise. it's just that i thought more people should benefit from this sale. (:
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
when things are really bad..
it can only start to get better. (:
today work was so much better. (: and grumps isn't that bad already! haha she's like so much better now. so i shall start to call her sally here, unless she becomes grumps again haha! (:
so at lunch me, yvette, jesline and yongliang were discussing about our time card, and how we come early and leave late and don't get a cent more. haha so we decided to be cheeky today and all leave at 6 sharp. (: and it was funny see cos i logged off my comp at 5.30 and started to prepare my letters for despatch. i finished at 5.55 and jesline came with that cheeky look and whispered.. aye 5 more minutes! heehee! but that last 5 minutes took like forever. we kept having to find stuff to do cos we didn't want to leave early and jo yi as usual gave me errands last minute. haha but i finished them so quickly so i had to find weird stuff to do. anyhow we were laughing like crazy when we left the office.. and we didn't leave at 6 sharp cos yvette got called up by jo yi to discuss something. haha! (:
anyway work was really fun today, everyone was in a good mood. (: i found this ic photo on the floor, some chinese guy. so i went around asking if anyone dropped the photo from their application forms. and when i asked jo yi, she took a long hard look and concluded in all seriousness, "that doesn't look like me.." haha! she's so cute la. (:
so anyhows it's fun. and peiyun! i've got a piece of good news and a bad one too. the good news is we finally bought an aircon today to replace the faulty one. the bad news is that it can only be installed the day after you arrive. haha. so that means we'll have to chase my bro out of his room for a night. (:
today work was so much better. (: and grumps isn't that bad already! haha she's like so much better now. so i shall start to call her sally here, unless she becomes grumps again haha! (:
so at lunch me, yvette, jesline and yongliang were discussing about our time card, and how we come early and leave late and don't get a cent more. haha so we decided to be cheeky today and all leave at 6 sharp. (: and it was funny see cos i logged off my comp at 5.30 and started to prepare my letters for despatch. i finished at 5.55 and jesline came with that cheeky look and whispered.. aye 5 more minutes! heehee! but that last 5 minutes took like forever. we kept having to find stuff to do cos we didn't want to leave early and jo yi as usual gave me errands last minute. haha but i finished them so quickly so i had to find weird stuff to do. anyhow we were laughing like crazy when we left the office.. and we didn't leave at 6 sharp cos yvette got called up by jo yi to discuss something. haha! (:
anyway work was really fun today, everyone was in a good mood. (: i found this ic photo on the floor, some chinese guy. so i went around asking if anyone dropped the photo from their application forms. and when i asked jo yi, she took a long hard look and concluded in all seriousness, "that doesn't look like me.." haha! she's so cute la. (:
so anyhows it's fun. and peiyun! i've got a piece of good news and a bad one too. the good news is we finally bought an aircon today to replace the faulty one. the bad news is that it can only be installed the day after you arrive. haha. so that means we'll have to chase my bro out of his room for a night. (:
Monday, January 16, 2006
testimony time
We should be able to say every year of our Christian life, "I have grown in my faith, and now I love God and others more this year than I did last year."
-Neil T. Anderson, The Bondage Breaker-
for anyone going through a tough patch, i'd recommend that you pick up this book, the bondage breaker. i've not been an avid reader in the past few months, and few books have caught my eye. but this book managed to keep me engrossed after 2 chapters. anyhows, there are many quotables in the book, and this is just one of the many worth remembering.
yesterday was the epitome of 'a horrible day'. nothing went right, even my computer didn't function properly. so it came to a point when i quit trying cos it was really no point. it felt like everytime i tried to make things right, i was flinging myself into yet another concrete wall. so when my comp hanged, i totally shut off everything and decided, God, You take over. so i just stood there in the dark looking out of my window, and it felt as if God was there, and everything seemed to resonate with His goodness. then this song came to my mind..
Trust His Heart
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't see how it could
Troubles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes bind us to the Truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart.
there couldn't be any song more apt than that, cos it spelt out exactly what i was feeling and what i could not put into words. God brought me to my tears yet again, and as i'm continually humbled by His love, care and concern for us, i pray that all of you would too.
and many thanks to ivy and wilfrid for that book. though i know it's a little late reading it now, but at least it's helping me alot even after only 2 chapters. well better reading it late than never! (: ooooh. soon it'll be 2nd month man. (: jeanette-the-lightbulb version 1.1 has been around for a few years at least. but the upgraded version is after you two tied the knot. hahahahahaha. (: jeanette-the-lightbulb version 2.1 (:
-Neil T. Anderson, The Bondage Breaker-
for anyone going through a tough patch, i'd recommend that you pick up this book, the bondage breaker. i've not been an avid reader in the past few months, and few books have caught my eye. but this book managed to keep me engrossed after 2 chapters. anyhows, there are many quotables in the book, and this is just one of the many worth remembering.
yesterday was the epitome of 'a horrible day'. nothing went right, even my computer didn't function properly. so it came to a point when i quit trying cos it was really no point. it felt like everytime i tried to make things right, i was flinging myself into yet another concrete wall. so when my comp hanged, i totally shut off everything and decided, God, You take over. so i just stood there in the dark looking out of my window, and it felt as if God was there, and everything seemed to resonate with His goodness. then this song came to my mind..
Trust His Heart
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can't see how it could
Troubles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes bind us to the Truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart.
there couldn't be any song more apt than that, cos it spelt out exactly what i was feeling and what i could not put into words. God brought me to my tears yet again, and as i'm continually humbled by His love, care and concern for us, i pray that all of you would too.
and many thanks to ivy and wilfrid for that book. though i know it's a little late reading it now, but at least it's helping me alot even after only 2 chapters. well better reading it late than never! (: ooooh. soon it'll be 2nd month man. (: jeanette-the-lightbulb version 1.1 has been around for a few years at least. but the upgraded version is after you two tied the knot. hahahahahaha. (: jeanette-the-lightbulb version 2.1 (:
Saturday, January 14, 2006
contented
my mum and bro decided not to buy the swift. YAYNESS! hahaha i think it's just like what dear joey said. a mutated version of the mini. bastard child, that's what my bro calls it. so we're buying the honda city. haha we're not that rich you know, and i kinda like the city, with all it's fold up seats and all. (:
and i got my bag! haha my $5 bag. from chinatown. and i got not just one, but THREE! haha all in different colours and sizes. (:
and the laundry's done. thanks to my maid. heehee. YAY.
and i got my bag! haha my $5 bag. from chinatown. and i got not just one, but THREE! haha all in different colours and sizes. (:
and the laundry's done. thanks to my maid. heehee. YAY.
positivity
positivity is something that we all should cultivate in our character. many things in this world happen in a cycle, the water cycle, life cycle, yada yada yada, you get what i mean. and having said that, positivity is no exception, of course the same can be said of its counterpart and exact opposite, negativity.
looking back, i realised that much more things get done when people are encouraged to take action instead of being admonished for the lack of it.the underlying rule is very simple : nobody likes being at the receiving end of scoldings and punishments. it's just human nature to be so.
i have many examples of such stuff, but i suppose they are somewhat personal so they shall not shared. however, one worth noting is that of my oreintation group last year where i was the ogl. before that, i was an ogf and i figured that certain ways are just not useful in getting things done. hence, i adopted a whole new attitude and the group was constantly encouraged by stuff like "we're the best" and "you can do it" and "we don't need to win every game but we need to play fair", "be fair to yourself". it really kept the group together and i'm kinda proud of this group of juniors. (:
looking back, i realised that much more things get done when people are encouraged to take action instead of being admonished for the lack of it.the underlying rule is very simple : nobody likes being at the receiving end of scoldings and punishments. it's just human nature to be so.
i have many examples of such stuff, but i suppose they are somewhat personal so they shall not shared. however, one worth noting is that of my oreintation group last year where i was the ogl. before that, i was an ogf and i figured that certain ways are just not useful in getting things done. hence, i adopted a whole new attitude and the group was constantly encouraged by stuff like "we're the best" and "you can do it" and "we don't need to win every game but we need to play fair", "be fair to yourself". it really kept the group together and i'm kinda proud of this group of juniors. (:
Friday, January 13, 2006
a myth is a myth
a myth is a myth till you believe in it. mind over matter. always remember that.
"aiyah i'm so suay today leh!"
-yvette, on friday the thirteenth-
yeah i woke up late, chionged to office, got scolded by cynthia first thing in the morning for using the wrong envelopes for despatch. but things got better, for one, grumps was a wee bit nicer today, so was chelvi, i wasn't seated with grumps for a good part of the day and yvette bore the brunt of her nagging and complaints, and the day was quite alright. see, friday the thirteenth is just like any other day. well if you choose to believe in this myth, your day will definitely be URGH. (:
i just found out that jo yi [my boss] is a catholic. oooh. nice nice niceeeee. and she reminds me so much of auntie anne [my piano teacher for 9 yrs]. auntie anne is catholic too.
anyhows i'm now assistant cell leader, though i expect my duties to be very much the same as before [meaning not much] . (: so assistant cell leader, co-head of 11am children's ministry. God give me strength.
anyhows i feel really blessed at work, i couldn't ask for anything more. i asked God for a job, and He gave me one, not just a job, but a job that was at a place of particular interest to me [MOE] with GREAT colleagues [as in yvette, jesline and yongliang] and a good boss [jo yi] and something that i like doing (: it's all that i want man. well, after teaching that is. (:
"aiyah i'm so suay today leh!"
-yvette, on friday the thirteenth-
yeah i woke up late, chionged to office, got scolded by cynthia first thing in the morning for using the wrong envelopes for despatch. but things got better, for one, grumps was a wee bit nicer today, so was chelvi, i wasn't seated with grumps for a good part of the day and yvette bore the brunt of her nagging and complaints, and the day was quite alright. see, friday the thirteenth is just like any other day. well if you choose to believe in this myth, your day will definitely be URGH. (:
i just found out that jo yi [my boss] is a catholic. oooh. nice nice niceeeee. and she reminds me so much of auntie anne [my piano teacher for 9 yrs]. auntie anne is catholic too.
anyhows i'm now assistant cell leader, though i expect my duties to be very much the same as before [meaning not much] . (: so assistant cell leader, co-head of 11am children's ministry. God give me strength.
anyhows i feel really blessed at work, i couldn't ask for anything more. i asked God for a job, and He gave me one, not just a job, but a job that was at a place of particular interest to me [MOE] with GREAT colleagues [as in yvette, jesline and yongliang] and a good boss [jo yi] and something that i like doing (: it's all that i want man. well, after teaching that is. (:
Thursday, January 12, 2006
i hate the suzuki swift.
and i hate it when people ask for my opinion and just throw what i say out of the window. what's the point of asking then?!
argharghargh. she just has a way of irritating me.
and i can't stay angry. cos everytime i feel angry i just feel like bursting out laughing. totally opposite emotions i know, and i can't explain why either. =l
and i hate it when people ask for my opinion and just throw what i say out of the window. what's the point of asking then?!
argharghargh. she just has a way of irritating me.
and i can't stay angry. cos everytime i feel angry i just feel like bursting out laughing. totally opposite emotions i know, and i can't explain why either. =l
I FOUND A JOB!
FINALLY.
hahahahahaha.
oh man the place is so nice. haha it's at moe hq. and they have this floor dedicated to the staff for them to play and relax and havoc. it's got lounges, ktv rooms, billard rooms and ping pong rooms and places where they sell all sorts of weird stuff. one day it's stickers, the next day it's bags. i wanna work here next time if i can. (:
mmm the people here are alright, not the friendliest of people but i can deal with that. (: my "boss" is nice, though i don't quite like the lady that i share the cubicle with. haha i think i shall call her 'grumps'. cos she's always complaining, or else she's bossing people around, or else she's just being haughty. oh wells. don't have a good impression of her.
ON THE OTHER HAND.
i like the people i had lunch with today! haha.. yvette, jesline and her bro are nice people. heehee. her brother is shy but he's nice. haha we both just don't understand grumps. so she says something to the two of us and i mouth to him "i don't know what she's talking about" and he mouths back "me too". haha. thank goodness he's sitting nearby. like if i stand up i'll be looking into his work area. (:
and i saw mr gan today! haha my first day of work at moe and i bump into mr gan already. (: nice to see familiar faces always.
FINALLY.
hahahahahaha.
oh man the place is so nice. haha it's at moe hq. and they have this floor dedicated to the staff for them to play and relax and havoc. it's got lounges, ktv rooms, billard rooms and ping pong rooms and places where they sell all sorts of weird stuff. one day it's stickers, the next day it's bags. i wanna work here next time if i can. (:
mmm the people here are alright, not the friendliest of people but i can deal with that. (: my "boss" is nice, though i don't quite like the lady that i share the cubicle with. haha i think i shall call her 'grumps'. cos she's always complaining, or else she's bossing people around, or else she's just being haughty. oh wells. don't have a good impression of her.
ON THE OTHER HAND.
i like the people i had lunch with today! haha.. yvette, jesline and her bro are nice people. heehee. her brother is shy but he's nice. haha we both just don't understand grumps. so she says something to the two of us and i mouth to him "i don't know what she's talking about" and he mouths back "me too". haha. thank goodness he's sitting nearby. like if i stand up i'll be looking into his work area. (:
and i saw mr gan today! haha my first day of work at moe and i bump into mr gan already. (: nice to see familiar faces always.
cca carnival
a day full of new experiences, even though this was the.. 6 th cca carnival in AJ that i've been to [1 in open house'03, 2 during my own orientations in '04, 2 recruitment drives for juniors in '05 and 1 yest.] haha funny how i've only spent 2 yrs in AJ but gone through 6 cca carnivals when in the 4 yrs in PL we've only had 4.
anyhows we sang circle of life and no importa la distancia. to be courteous, i'd say it wasn't our best performance. to be frank, i'd say we sucked big time. but oh wells, it's over and i had fun even though we sang horribly [and that's an understatement.] oh the sucking big time is not the new experience. hahaha.
sang the no-word-solo for circle of life cos qiaowen was sick that day, had fun doing it. (: haha it's not a new experience though cos i did a solo in church before. but i was still shaking with nervousness all the same. it never is easy.
I CONDUCTED AUDITIONS TODAY! (: aye it was fun man. haha. we had this guy singing hindi to us. OOOOH. and we had this really solid bass who just couldn't pitch. what a pity. and we had nice sopsies that went all the way to high B. high B in an audition! whoa that's good. and good thing that she absolutely loves AJ so i'm crossing my fingers and hoping she'd stay in AJ, and in choir [cos practices are tough.]
oh wells the new j1s were pretty worried that they'd get a strict conductor so the only thing i could come up with to allay their fears was.. "think of a chinese santa claus and you've got mr kwei." haha i'm so sorry it sorta came out wrong but it was kinda funny and it did the trick of lightening them up so YAY. (:
and i did a VERY OH SO NICEEEEE chinese new year card for auntie siew wai. i really hope she likes it. (: will post up the photo of it soon. (: till then.. more new year card-making. (:
anyhows we sang circle of life and no importa la distancia. to be courteous, i'd say it wasn't our best performance. to be frank, i'd say we sucked big time. but oh wells, it's over and i had fun even though we sang horribly [and that's an understatement.] oh the sucking big time is not the new experience. hahaha.
sang the no-word-solo for circle of life cos qiaowen was sick that day, had fun doing it. (: haha it's not a new experience though cos i did a solo in church before. but i was still shaking with nervousness all the same. it never is easy.
I CONDUCTED AUDITIONS TODAY! (: aye it was fun man. haha. we had this guy singing hindi to us. OOOOH. and we had this really solid bass who just couldn't pitch. what a pity. and we had nice sopsies that went all the way to high B. high B in an audition! whoa that's good. and good thing that she absolutely loves AJ so i'm crossing my fingers and hoping she'd stay in AJ, and in choir [cos practices are tough.]
oh wells the new j1s were pretty worried that they'd get a strict conductor so the only thing i could come up with to allay their fears was.. "think of a chinese santa claus and you've got mr kwei." haha i'm so sorry it sorta came out wrong but it was kinda funny and it did the trick of lightening them up so YAY. (:
and i did a VERY OH SO NICEEEEE chinese new year card for auntie siew wai. i really hope she likes it. (: will post up the photo of it soon. (: till then.. more new year card-making. (:
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
tagboard replies
vanessa;
lucky you! new monitor. ((: and i'm not stupid okayy. i mean.. it wasn't me. really. it was chrissy boy. (: and i love you too!
peiyun;
my mummy sent you an email have you received it? anyhows. it's really cold for me now. haha. like in nz. but i guess you'll find it warm. oh wells. looking forward to the 24th! (:
marc;
haha you lazy bummer. i thought you wanted to better your timing? (:
kailing;
aye thanks! (: you know, i love you! haha. and how can i be like the little girl? i mean.. she's cute, even from the back! haha!
chrissy boy;
haha. yeah horsie. thanks for being great ears when i need to rant. (: and it isn't pink la! it's.. red? haha. and the greens weren't very nice see. and since you're cell leader you get a striking colour. (:
liru;
spousey wousey! what have you been up to? (:
keni;
i miss you loads man twinee. hope to see you tomorrow at cca carnival. marklam says you're going back?
teresa;
haha! yeah man we're in the same boat. it hurts like crazy hahaha!
christabel;
nah i didn't help much. i mean you all would still have managed, probably even better without me. and it was lukey who did the hard part, though we're not singing it anymore. (:
lucky you! new monitor. ((: and i'm not stupid okayy. i mean.. it wasn't me. really. it was chrissy boy. (: and i love you too!
peiyun;
my mummy sent you an email have you received it? anyhows. it's really cold for me now. haha. like in nz. but i guess you'll find it warm. oh wells. looking forward to the 24th! (:
marc;
haha you lazy bummer. i thought you wanted to better your timing? (:
kailing;
aye thanks! (: you know, i love you! haha. and how can i be like the little girl? i mean.. she's cute, even from the back! haha!
chrissy boy;
haha. yeah horsie. thanks for being great ears when i need to rant. (: and it isn't pink la! it's.. red? haha. and the greens weren't very nice see. and since you're cell leader you get a striking colour. (:
liru;
spousey wousey! what have you been up to? (:
keni;
i miss you loads man twinee. hope to see you tomorrow at cca carnival. marklam says you're going back?
teresa;
haha! yeah man we're in the same boat. it hurts like crazy hahaha!
christabel;
nah i didn't help much. i mean you all would still have managed, probably even better without me. and it was lukey who did the hard part, though we're not singing it anymore. (:
random
was watching the vocale's performance at our concert last year, voyaje. then watching their rendition of circle of life, hoping to get some pointers for tomorrow's performance. and when it got to joshua's solo it was so funny. haha! you could see johnny chuah trying so hard to keep a straight face, chee hang too! i mean if i were there i think i'd just burst out laughing cos joshua had this awfully constipated look on his face. (: high notes i know. (:
had a nice talk with cheryl just now on the phone. man i just realised i miss her so very much. and anyhows, i realised that the world is very small indeed. shan't go into the details in case it bores you, my reader. (:
christopher just told me something very "ehfqo phgwoifehvnj;eoirwg". it's like when i first read whatever he told me on msn i was like WHAT!?! then i was like.. why? ah wells. since no one else in my cell knows yet, i shan't say yet. the time will come when i'll tell you all.
and that day when i received this email from auntie jen regarding aa and addressed to the CORE TEAM, i was like. whoa they are serious about me taking over man. arghhhhh. stressed.
had a nice talk with cheryl just now on the phone. man i just realised i miss her so very much. and anyhows, i realised that the world is very small indeed. shan't go into the details in case it bores you, my reader. (:
christopher just told me something very "ehfqo phgwoifehvnj;eoirwg". it's like when i first read whatever he told me on msn i was like WHAT!?! then i was like.. why? ah wells. since no one else in my cell knows yet, i shan't say yet. the time will come when i'll tell you all.
and that day when i received this email from auntie jen regarding aa and addressed to the CORE TEAM, i was like. whoa they are serious about me taking over man. arghhhhh. stressed.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
freedom?
it's so funny how we never really know how to appreciate fully what we have here and now.
when i was 2
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can start primary one.
when i was 7
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can be a teenager.
when i was 13
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can be done with o levels.
when i was 17
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can finally have my freedom away from books
now i'm turning 19
i have my freedom
now i wish that i didn't grow up that quickly
that i'm back like i was at the age of 2.
ironic isn't it?
when i was 2
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can start primary one.
when i was 7
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can be a teenager.
when i was 13
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can be done with o levels.
when i was 17
i told myself
how i wish i'd grow up quickly
so i can finally have my freedom away from books
now i'm turning 19
i have my freedom
now i wish that i didn't grow up that quickly
that i'm back like i was at the age of 2.
ironic isn't it?
Monday, January 09, 2006
a walk back in time
somehow i feel old. like i aged overnight. because when i went back to the aj choir room today, i felt like i'd turned the clock back. MAN.
seeing familiar faces was probably the best thing that happened today. some brought back fond memories, others brought back painful ones. some happiness, others sorrow. and there were some that i was simply indifferent to. perhaps, it is one of my many defense mechanisms, even i myself do not know. but one thing i do know, that i'm ready to learn, to forgive, to start over and to try again. no doubt this process may bring about hurt and grieve, but as they say, no pain, no gain.
however, today is like any other day. imperfection creeps in somehow. was watching one tree hill, and one of the characters keith scott said something that really inpacted me, and perhaps many of the people who watched that episode of one tree hill.
" if you stare long and hard in the mirror, is the person staring back who you wanna be? "
or something like that.
ANYWAY.
was filling up this job application and one of the fields i had to fill was that of referees. for those that do not know, referees are people that vouch for your character and testify. and the only person that i knew long enough, the only person that really knows me as a person was ivy. i've known her for a good part of my life, that even i don't know how many years we've known each other. our brothers are best friends, that's why. but i only got to know her better in the last 6 years, and she was the one that was always praying for me throughout all the struggles i had in sec4 at home and at school. perhaps, it's because our personalities are so similar, that we could really understand each other, and that she'd gone through almost everything i had. really thank God for her, He couldn't have sent anyone better in her place. (:
i never knew filling up job applications could bring back fond memories too. (:
hen mun ya ma en wi na ma ba la.. now the tune is stuck in my head. it always happens after choir pract. (: or any music pract for that matter.
seeing familiar faces was probably the best thing that happened today. some brought back fond memories, others brought back painful ones. some happiness, others sorrow. and there were some that i was simply indifferent to. perhaps, it is one of my many defense mechanisms, even i myself do not know. but one thing i do know, that i'm ready to learn, to forgive, to start over and to try again. no doubt this process may bring about hurt and grieve, but as they say, no pain, no gain.
however, today is like any other day. imperfection creeps in somehow. was watching one tree hill, and one of the characters keith scott said something that really inpacted me, and perhaps many of the people who watched that episode of one tree hill.
" if you stare long and hard in the mirror, is the person staring back who you wanna be? "
or something like that.
ANYWAY.
was filling up this job application and one of the fields i had to fill was that of referees. for those that do not know, referees are people that vouch for your character and testify. and the only person that i knew long enough, the only person that really knows me as a person was ivy. i've known her for a good part of my life, that even i don't know how many years we've known each other. our brothers are best friends, that's why. but i only got to know her better in the last 6 years, and she was the one that was always praying for me throughout all the struggles i had in sec4 at home and at school. perhaps, it's because our personalities are so similar, that we could really understand each other, and that she'd gone through almost everything i had. really thank God for her, He couldn't have sent anyone better in her place. (:
i never knew filling up job applications could bring back fond memories too. (:
hen mun ya ma en wi na ma ba la.. now the tune is stuck in my head. it always happens after choir pract. (: or any music pract for that matter.
did you know?
DID YOU KNOW.. that if you fracture your tail bone..
any fall injuring it yet again can result in waist down paralysis?
and that your spine hurts terribly when you get a tummyache?
now i know. and i sure wish i didn't. that i didn't fracture my tail bone.
any fall injuring it yet again can result in waist down paralysis?
and that your spine hurts terribly when you get a tummyache?
now i know. and i sure wish i didn't. that i didn't fracture my tail bone.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
quotables by joey kang.
on failure
"So instead of crying over spilt milk
just soak up the milk
give it to the cat, maybe
and go get more milk"
on success
"in everything you do
have patience and success immediately becomes a higher possibility"
"faith can be our greatest weapon and weakness"
"So instead of crying over spilt milk
just soak up the milk
give it to the cat, maybe
and go get more milk"
on success
"in everything you do
have patience and success immediately becomes a higher possibility"
"faith can be our greatest weapon and weakness"
excerpts from today's outing.
"auntie, kopi ping sio!"
"singapore very humidity? aye you very stupidity leh."
"i hope clumsiness isn't contagious either."
"where's the viewfinder? it's got no viewfinder!"
"i want you all in a straight circle!"
"i searched for my keys for 15 mins and found them in my left hand."
"i wore black shoes to school and i had to call my friend who leaves near school to brong shoes for me."
"give her a chance. give her a chance."
"must keep that photo. use it when she makes it big."
oh man i think we should go out more often. (: but then again i also laugh lots when i go out with xintian. right? "anorexia? where! where!?"
"singapore very humidity? aye you very stupidity leh."
"i hope clumsiness isn't contagious either."
"where's the viewfinder? it's got no viewfinder!"
"i want you all in a straight circle!"
"i searched for my keys for 15 mins and found them in my left hand."
"i wore black shoes to school and i had to call my friend who leaves near school to brong shoes for me."
"give her a chance. give her a chance."
"must keep that photo. use it when she makes it big."
oh man i think we should go out more often. (: but then again i also laugh lots when i go out with xintian. right? "anorexia? where! where!?"
Friday, January 06, 2006
fellowship
today i woke up the earliest i've ever had in.. a few weeks. haha cos i had a breakfast appointment at 9.30 with teng at bishan. anyhows it was crap la. we were like laughing and laughing so hard while walking all ard j8 waiting for it to open. yeah so we caught the family stone. it's nice nice nice nice niceee. (: there were like less than 8 people in the cinema. so we had lotsa room. (: and that's our second movie in six plus months. hahaha. the last movie we caught was mr and mrs smith when i just came back from olomouc. haha. movie kakis who don't visit the cinemas often.
anyways it was darn nice. then we met up with xintian and chris. oh ho ho ho. we crapped even more. and teng and chris has similar interests : photography. so while me and tian were cd shopping in borders, they were both discussin army and photography. it was oh so fun. i think everyone had fun! YAY.
anyhows it's time to wake a sleeping xintian who conked out on my couch barely 5 minutes after we stepped into my house. time for prayer and praise in church!
anyhows keep safe teng. (: will be praying for you whether you believe in God or not. and i believe nic will be keeping you in his prayers too. (:
quotable: "i hope stupidity is not contagious cos i'm out with you now." -tengjin.
anyways it was darn nice. then we met up with xintian and chris. oh ho ho ho. we crapped even more. and teng and chris has similar interests : photography. so while me and tian were cd shopping in borders, they were both discussin army and photography. it was oh so fun. i think everyone had fun! YAY.
anyhows it's time to wake a sleeping xintian who conked out on my couch barely 5 minutes after we stepped into my house. time for prayer and praise in church!
anyhows keep safe teng. (: will be praying for you whether you believe in God or not. and i believe nic will be keeping you in his prayers too. (:
quotable: "i hope stupidity is not contagious cos i'm out with you now." -tengjin.
my brother never fails to bring a smile on my face when i'm feeling my lowest.
my mum is born in 1954, the year of the horse according to the chinese lunar calendar.
mother: -YELLING NON-STOP FOR NO RHYME OR REASON, then goes to sleep-
brother enters my room, windows all closed.
brother: "aren't you feeling warm?"
me:"too fed up to feel warm."
brother:"fed up then go sleep la."
me:"no use. she'll continue tomorrow morning."
5 minutes later..
brother enters my room again, this time holding a dictionary with a grin on his face.
brother:"you know why mummy nags so much?"
me:"no. why?"
brother shows me the dictionary, points to the word 'nag'.
and this is what it says..
nag colloquial horse.
my mum is born in 1954, the year of the horse according to the chinese lunar calendar.
mother: -YELLING NON-STOP FOR NO RHYME OR REASON, then goes to sleep-
brother enters my room, windows all closed.
brother: "aren't you feeling warm?"
me:"too fed up to feel warm."
brother:"fed up then go sleep la."
me:"no use. she'll continue tomorrow morning."
5 minutes later..
brother enters my room again, this time holding a dictionary with a grin on his face.
brother:"you know why mummy nags so much?"
me:"no. why?"
brother shows me the dictionary, points to the word 'nag'.
and this is what it says..
nag colloquial horse.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
perfect seven
nessa loves me and i love nessa.
i made her day.
xintian made something for me to eat! i couldn't be happier.
this is indeed a perfect post. (:
and i just remembered i'm going to bid farewell to teng tomorrow. oh wells. last movie with my movie kaki before he gets a shiny head! (: i hope i get to choose the movie. actually i think i will. haha.
tomorrow please come quick! (:
i made her day.
xintian made something for me to eat! i couldn't be happier.
this is indeed a perfect post. (:
and i just remembered i'm going to bid farewell to teng tomorrow. oh wells. last movie with my movie kaki before he gets a shiny head! (: i hope i get to choose the movie. actually i think i will. haha.
tomorrow please come quick! (:
post number SIX reads that tabitha is going to join AA [children's ministry] so YAY YAY YAY.
korkor hurry come home with the longest yard vcd cos i'm dying of boredom.
korkor hurry come home with the longest yard vcd cos i'm dying of boredom.
XINTIAN'S NOT COMING BOOHOOHOO. oh wells. i'd get to see her tomorrow anyhows. -looks forward to tomorrow instead- (:
and this is post number FIVE.
and this is post number FIVE.
looking forward step one.
xintian's coming over in the evening, and hopefully ling too! can't wait! (:
this is my.. fourth post of the day. can you already tell i'm very bored? I NEED A JOB.
this is my.. fourth post of the day. can you already tell i'm very bored? I NEED A JOB.
nz photos.
since nessa posted most of the photos, i shall be my lazy self and just put the link here. HAHAHA. (: ain't that so very me?
auckland photos
auckland photos
it is a cruel world out there.
somehow i cannot help but sometimes feel thankful, cos i grew up in a very sheltered environment, and sad, because i cannot do much about those not as blessed as me.
just read my cousin's blog, and her words circle around a single noun : disappointment. disappointment that life has not dealt her a fair deal. disappointment in the uggliness of this world. disappointment in her surroundings. oh how i wish i can help her, but i really dare not. i really cannot comprehend the depth of her misery, hence if we traded places and she was trying to comfort me, it would seem more like mockery than anything else. Dear Father, i pray for ___ right now, take away her pain deep down in her heart, take away her hurt. replace it with Your love and show her that if her daddy is the only one that loves her on this earth, You love her with a love far greater. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen.
sometimes i just feel so weak and helpless. and i just don't know how to share Christ adequately with her.
God help me.
just read my cousin's blog, and her words circle around a single noun : disappointment. disappointment that life has not dealt her a fair deal. disappointment in the uggliness of this world. disappointment in her surroundings. oh how i wish i can help her, but i really dare not. i really cannot comprehend the depth of her misery, hence if we traded places and she was trying to comfort me, it would seem more like mockery than anything else. Dear Father, i pray for ___ right now, take away her pain deep down in her heart, take away her hurt. replace it with Your love and show her that if her daddy is the only one that loves her on this earth, You love her with a love far greater. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen.
sometimes i just feel so weak and helpless. and i just don't know how to share Christ adequately with her.
God help me.
2005 gone, 2006 ahead.
since just about EVERY blog i went to has written something about 2005 and 2006, i shall do the same. peer pressure you know HAHAHA.
2005 was quite a horrid year for me actually. but it was also the most exctiting. one packed with ups and downs. for those who know, i went through quite a hell-ish time at the beginning. but as my cell members like to say, "what goes up must come down!" so i guess the reverse must be true as well, cos my year ended quite well. (: 2005 was also one filled with lessons about myself, about others and about life in general. in a nutshell, 2005 was an eventful year. a VERY eventful year.
at the same time, i especially like year 2005 because i could really feel God's presence with me every single moment. He was such a big part of my life and that's prolly the best thing that happened in 2005. the next best thing is my uthcell. OMG they rawk big time. [chrissy boy are you reading this?!] haha. WE DID IT. everybody, we made uthcell work, TOGETHER. i have never been more excited about going for uthcell than ever, and many have remarked about our growth not only in numbers but also in maturity, in stature and in discipline. WELL DONE EVERYONE! (: haha don't you see God's hand in this? it's just screaming in your face. (:
2005 opened my eyes to my true friends. people whom i could really rely on. JELY. liru, jingyi and sarah, jasper too. and jasper ang and kelvin fong. oh man you guys are really precious gems to me. (: thank you so very much for being there for me at my shittiest. HAHAHA. thank you especially to liru for proving to be such a true friend, one who's always there, not always heard but always there. (: -gives you a BIG HUG-
2005 saw two very precious people to me getting married : wilfrid [whom i fondly call wildsie] and ivy. (: haha i think i was more excited about their marriage than them. (: it was like FINALLY. (: their marriage was probably the event of the year for me. (:
so here's my personal 2005 awards. [you'd better feel honoured that you're there in the list! (:]
event of the year: 19/20 november wilfrid and ivy's wedding
it's like FINALLY. i've now graduated from being your lightbulb. now i'm ULTRA lightbulb HAHAHA. anyhows you two are so special to me i couldn't have been happier for you two! (:
person of the year: liru
you've been the most real person i know, sticking it out with me through everything. your frankness i aprreciate a lot, like how i told you i broke up with mark and you replied cooly, "good! you should have broken up long ago." you really caught me by surprise then, but i know why you said that. (: thank you will be a huge understatement here.
group of the year: uthcell
we've grown so much over the past year. you guys have taught me so much, and especially the girls. talking about stuff [looks at kailing and xintian (:] has made me realised that i'm in the same boat as you guys and that we'll be there for each other through everything. (: i'm so glad that i'm in uthcell, that dennis and my bro insisted that i join you all. i couldn't have made a better decision myself. (:
clique of the year: jely
oh man when i think of you guys i think about all the bitching sessions we've had. they were so fun, yet sometimes i felt guilty about it, cos i know that i wouldn't want people to talk about me like that either. anyhows, you all have been my greatest companions in choir and in school, and i love you girls cos you all totally rawk. i'm someone who thinks that girls are total bitches [including myself don't you worry] and that friends can only be found in guys. but boy am i thankful that you all have made me change my thinking and believe otherwise. (: with you i see a girly side of me that shocks even myself HAHAHA. (: okay if you didn't quite understand what i wrote above, it's okay cos we're the core bimbo club. (: okay so i'll put it simply for you: I LOVE YOU THREE! (:
lowest moment ever: [argh you all know what it is]
i don't wanna talk about it. =l
confidant of the year: georgia tan / vanessa ko
i had a hard time deciding who should win this award, but i guess both of you are just as deserving. (:
gerogia, you've opened me up to endless possibilities. a few months before the cheerleading comp i'd never have imagined myself as a cheerleader, let alone being tossed up in the air. you've been such a great listening ear at my lowest moment and have given me much needed advice. you told me what i needed to hear [not preppy make-me-feel-good words but true and honest advice] and your inner strength inspires me. thank you georgia, for giving me part of yourself. (:
nessa nessa. what can i say. you're my loyal supporter man HAHAHA. (: no matter what i choose, you always back me up. your belief in me has given me back my crushed confidence. you are one really sweet girl that never fails to bring a smile to my face. i think i should give you the most thoughtful award too! hahah. (:
cousin of the year: vanessa ko [i think this title will stay with you for quite a while! haha!]
see above (:
experience of the year: competition in olomouc, czech republic. AND THRASHING ACJC choir HAHAHAHAHA. (:
in their face man! haha.the once unbeatable ac choir is suddenly not so unbeatable now. considering that the category that could really determine our strength was the youth category, where out of 4 songs, we sang 2 same songs. and we beat them by 3 marks in that category! haha victory is sweet. anyhows ac choir aside, the choir really forged strong bonds then, and it's really good to see the j1sops so united. just hope that this unity will be heard in their voices as well. (:
well. that's behind now, we always have to be forward looking, no matter how hard it is. 2006, here i come!
2005 was quite a horrid year for me actually. but it was also the most exctiting. one packed with ups and downs. for those who know, i went through quite a hell-ish time at the beginning. but as my cell members like to say, "what goes up must come down!" so i guess the reverse must be true as well, cos my year ended quite well. (: 2005 was also one filled with lessons about myself, about others and about life in general. in a nutshell, 2005 was an eventful year. a VERY eventful year.
at the same time, i especially like year 2005 because i could really feel God's presence with me every single moment. He was such a big part of my life and that's prolly the best thing that happened in 2005. the next best thing is my uthcell. OMG they rawk big time. [chrissy boy are you reading this?!] haha. WE DID IT. everybody, we made uthcell work, TOGETHER. i have never been more excited about going for uthcell than ever, and many have remarked about our growth not only in numbers but also in maturity, in stature and in discipline. WELL DONE EVERYONE! (: haha don't you see God's hand in this? it's just screaming in your face. (:
2005 opened my eyes to my true friends. people whom i could really rely on. JELY. liru, jingyi and sarah, jasper too. and jasper ang and kelvin fong. oh man you guys are really precious gems to me. (: thank you so very much for being there for me at my shittiest. HAHAHA. thank you especially to liru for proving to be such a true friend, one who's always there, not always heard but always there. (: -gives you a BIG HUG-
2005 saw two very precious people to me getting married : wilfrid [whom i fondly call wildsie] and ivy. (: haha i think i was more excited about their marriage than them. (: it was like FINALLY. (: their marriage was probably the event of the year for me. (:
so here's my personal 2005 awards. [you'd better feel honoured that you're there in the list! (:]
event of the year: 19/20 november wilfrid and ivy's wedding
it's like FINALLY. i've now graduated from being your lightbulb. now i'm ULTRA lightbulb HAHAHA. anyhows you two are so special to me i couldn't have been happier for you two! (:
person of the year: liru
you've been the most real person i know, sticking it out with me through everything. your frankness i aprreciate a lot, like how i told you i broke up with mark and you replied cooly, "good! you should have broken up long ago." you really caught me by surprise then, but i know why you said that. (: thank you will be a huge understatement here.
group of the year: uthcell
we've grown so much over the past year. you guys have taught me so much, and especially the girls. talking about stuff [looks at kailing and xintian (:] has made me realised that i'm in the same boat as you guys and that we'll be there for each other through everything. (: i'm so glad that i'm in uthcell, that dennis and my bro insisted that i join you all. i couldn't have made a better decision myself. (:
clique of the year: jely
oh man when i think of you guys i think about all the bitching sessions we've had. they were so fun, yet sometimes i felt guilty about it, cos i know that i wouldn't want people to talk about me like that either. anyhows, you all have been my greatest companions in choir and in school, and i love you girls cos you all totally rawk. i'm someone who thinks that girls are total bitches [including myself don't you worry] and that friends can only be found in guys. but boy am i thankful that you all have made me change my thinking and believe otherwise. (: with you i see a girly side of me that shocks even myself HAHAHA. (: okay if you didn't quite understand what i wrote above, it's okay cos we're the core bimbo club. (: okay so i'll put it simply for you: I LOVE YOU THREE! (:
lowest moment ever: [argh you all know what it is]
i don't wanna talk about it. =l
confidant of the year: georgia tan / vanessa ko
i had a hard time deciding who should win this award, but i guess both of you are just as deserving. (:
gerogia, you've opened me up to endless possibilities. a few months before the cheerleading comp i'd never have imagined myself as a cheerleader, let alone being tossed up in the air. you've been such a great listening ear at my lowest moment and have given me much needed advice. you told me what i needed to hear [not preppy make-me-feel-good words but true and honest advice] and your inner strength inspires me. thank you georgia, for giving me part of yourself. (:
nessa nessa. what can i say. you're my loyal supporter man HAHAHA. (: no matter what i choose, you always back me up. your belief in me has given me back my crushed confidence. you are one really sweet girl that never fails to bring a smile to my face. i think i should give you the most thoughtful award too! hahah. (:
cousin of the year: vanessa ko [i think this title will stay with you for quite a while! haha!]
see above (:
experience of the year: competition in olomouc, czech republic. AND THRASHING ACJC choir HAHAHAHAHA. (:
in their face man! haha.the once unbeatable ac choir is suddenly not so unbeatable now. considering that the category that could really determine our strength was the youth category, where out of 4 songs, we sang 2 same songs. and we beat them by 3 marks in that category! haha victory is sweet. anyhows ac choir aside, the choir really forged strong bonds then, and it's really good to see the j1sops so united. just hope that this unity will be heard in their voices as well. (:
well. that's behind now, we always have to be forward looking, no matter how hard it is. 2006, here i come!
Monday, January 02, 2006
on the last few days of 2005 and the first of 2006
firstly, a very happy birthday yesterday to my godmama ivy! haha. well if you're reading this like you said on the card.. (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY. haha. isn't it cool.. being born on 1 jan. man. i guess there's pros and cons la. (:
anyhows, i've been mia-ing for quite a while, been away at a chalet in some super ulufied place where the only things you can do are eating, sleeping, watching movies/tv, playing mahjong, swimming and if you have the equipment, fishing. it's a real retreat, scenary is the best you can find in singapore i think, which really isn't saying much because singapore doesn't have scenary.
anyhows, God once again knocked some sense into my head and re-emphasized His presence in my life. on sat, i left this plastic bag in the pew of the church. with my ipod, my wallet, my handphone, camera and christmas gifts to me and my family from ivy and wilfrid. lo and behold, it went missing. i totally panicked, and it was like 10 minutes before service started. that day there were many visitors to the church cos it was new year's eve. anyhows, i told auntie judith about it, and she so kindly helped me to call the people who might have an idea who took my bag [crucial because there have been a series of thefts in my church] 5 minutes before service, auntie judith was still calling. i prayed silently, "God, my stuff are in your hands. help me calm down and leave all this to you. let me focus on you and serve you well without worrying about my bag because You are in charge here. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen." just before service started, auntie judith came into church and said to me, they found your bag! i was so relieved. God works in miraculous ways. and that day they didn't have a projectionist. and no one there before service started knew how to operate the projectors. so i was there, and i could help out. see, His ways are above our ways. (:
God rawks man. (:
anyhows, i've been mia-ing for quite a while, been away at a chalet in some super ulufied place where the only things you can do are eating, sleeping, watching movies/tv, playing mahjong, swimming and if you have the equipment, fishing. it's a real retreat, scenary is the best you can find in singapore i think, which really isn't saying much because singapore doesn't have scenary.
anyhows, God once again knocked some sense into my head and re-emphasized His presence in my life. on sat, i left this plastic bag in the pew of the church. with my ipod, my wallet, my handphone, camera and christmas gifts to me and my family from ivy and wilfrid. lo and behold, it went missing. i totally panicked, and it was like 10 minutes before service started. that day there were many visitors to the church cos it was new year's eve. anyhows, i told auntie judith about it, and she so kindly helped me to call the people who might have an idea who took my bag [crucial because there have been a series of thefts in my church] 5 minutes before service, auntie judith was still calling. i prayed silently, "God, my stuff are in your hands. help me calm down and leave all this to you. let me focus on you and serve you well without worrying about my bag because You are in charge here. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen." just before service started, auntie judith came into church and said to me, they found your bag! i was so relieved. God works in miraculous ways. and that day they didn't have a projectionist. and no one there before service started knew how to operate the projectors. so i was there, and i could help out. see, His ways are above our ways. (:
God rawks man. (:
