LOST.

that's exactly how i'm feeling right now. it seems like all my friends are going to faculty of arts and social sciences at nus or ntu accountancy or some bio course. and dear jeanetter right here knows enough people going to science with her that she can use her hands and count them all. let's see. gabriel cheow (in 2 years' time), zitian, whee geok. these are the only people i know who are confirm going to science. how about VCF? uhhh. me and me alone. am i going to join NUS Choir? i have no idea. mr kwei asked me to, but i haven't given him an answer yet.

then there's my granny. she's in hospital right now, having an op tomorrow morning. from what i hear, there's lots of risks involved for tomorrow's op. i'm trying to act like it's going to be okay, but deep down in me i'm all flustered. scared. very very scared. i don't want to lose her. she's looked after me ever since i can remember and i'd have to say that she's got lotsa patience when dealing with a naughty kid like me! all i want is for her to wake up after the op tomorrow. to recover. i want my granny.

i'm scared and lost. i need a hug. i need to hear that everything's going to be alright. so many changes going on in my life all at once, i'm not sure if i can cope.

God, help.  ¶ 11:46 PM